Evil Drug

Cigarettes are evil. I have been around and around again with quiting and its time for the final final.
My cig saga:
*started to smoke junior in hs
*quit after spring break senior year
*started again after freshman year in college
*smoked 4 years
*moved to dallas
*september of '02 got news from my dentist that i had to have major periodental surgery
and if i didn't quit i would have to have surgery again in 3 years for a grand total of about $20,000. i seeked professional assistance in my quiting process. got on a miracle pill called wellbutrin. quit. over, done with it. free of nicotine until late 2004. that is 2 yrs smoke free!
*2004 began to smoke when i drank (thought i could control this habit-how very wrong i was)
*2005 i took wellbutrin twice to quit. i was successful until i fell, stumbled and thought i could control it once again when i drank. smoke free was short lived.
*january 2006 began to smoke like a freight train again and just succumbed to my weak ways. finally i have had enough. i still have my wellbutrin perscription. i am inspired to quit once again with the upcoming trip to Arkansas to meet JL's family.
*i am currently on day 11 with wellbutrin and have cut back to a significant 2 a day. by saturday i will be smoke free.
*upon my arrival home, monday...nicotine will be out of my system. i will have to struggle to keep it up.

my experience with this process is that i am ok once i am past that 3 day without. i don't want to look back now after all that i went through. the medicine makes me think cigs are so nasty (which they are) and i can't even inhale without feeling nauseous. i am hoping, crossing my fingers, praying to god i don't fall again b/c i have about had it with this habit. i have come to the conclusion that this drug (yes, it is a drug) is evil and i need to steer far, far away! forever!

please have faith in me...this time is the last!

p.s.
problem is that i only have 2 wellbutrin left!