I Forgot

2 years ago yesterday, May 1st, I would have been married. Last year i forgot this date as well. Hummmm, obviously its not a day i like to remember or for that matter saddened by...which is a very good thing.
When i reflect on the date, the man, the entire situation....
-I feel an overwhelming sense of greatfulness....for me being a strong, independent young woman that simply was not going to do anything less than follow her heart.
-I like the day we picked. I love May. I love that it's an easy day to remember.
-I was to marry a wonderful man. Kind and loving, generous and all those great traits except there was something missing. Simple as that.
-I had it all planned out perfectly...the dress was bought, each bridesmaid had been mailed their gorgeous bcbg black coctail dresses, the groomsmen had their silver ties, the church was booked, the priest was booked, the honeymoon was payed for, the reception and all its details were in the works...the invitations were to be printed the following week and our first shower would be held at our new home 2 weeks later. Thank god i did it when i did!
-I was lonely, my heart was broken, i had no idea where i would go or what i would do. All i did know is that i did the right thing.

In the end, it all turns out...for better or worse...and it would've been just that. Today i would like to thank myself for being strong willed enough to call it quits before the knot was tied.